Unlucky Number 13

So we all say the number thirteen is the unluckiest of all, well who ever found that out is SOOO right, what is said in the next post may be a lil disturbing for some but it has to be done i say!! as after all everyone has a story to tell and i wanna tell mine before its too late!

It was a day just like any other ordinary day for me, i was a recent thirteen year old, i thought i was special, coz i got a job two days before my birthday and i thought i was a big shot at life, who knew that could have all been ripped up and torn to shreds right before my very eyes!!

in the evening i got a phone call from my friend to come over for a sleep over, i was excited as i didnt get to go to sleep over much and since i was a lil bit of a no body i wasnt well liked, well thats what it looked like, me and my friend hanged out and watched movies, gossiped and did girly things (well if girly means playing the play station)....(incidents to weird to publish occured before this scene that lead to this) and lil did i know after flushing the toilet i would find myself standing in the dark, with hands clamped tightly on my arms and a smell of smoke and whisky in the air, lil did i know the pain, hurt and panic my body would be going through, as the innocents of a thirteen year old girl left the building, who knew it wouldnt stop, who knew my struggles were powerless, as at 13 i was a skinny lil girl with match stick like arms! who knew if it wasnt for my friend for opening the toilet door would it not have stopped!! >.<

I thank her SO much for coming when she did, i did not sleep, after all no sleep happens at sleep overs, i lied awake eyes wide open, head spinning and heart racing, fearing that if i stepped inside that room again i would be pounced on like a zebra in the african jungle!

who knew that this was the beginning of the end of a once fully alive and fun loving soul! who knew it could only take one person to make me snap and make every lil word that stung me in the past make my heart welt, who knew it could have made me lie awake for months feeling  like my stomach was going to fall through to the floor, who knew that it could change my perception of how i viewed the world around me....and who knew the massive repercussions it would have affect on in my life to come and to those around me!