Why should it matter??!!! but it does!

even though, i was happy with my new life, i was loving the fact i knew i was gay, but i didnt have the courage to tell my parents again, well parent (as my dad is the biggest homophobe) so i didnt have the courage to tell my mum again i was gay, you would think hearing it once would be enough, sadly it wasnt! :(

Anyhoo in april to june of 2010 i dated a guy, it was lust and i think i was a lonely girl looking for love and i knew the fact i knew NO other lesbians in the school so i thought why not, this could be fun! but no this was the worst mistake of my life!!!he was 6 years older than me! i thought that was cool enough to date him, you know someone with brains, someone to lead me straight and personally i think i was looking for a father figure in my life, so as if you havent caught on yet, me and my dad dont get on! i mean we may look like the perfect father daughter when we have guests or when we are out, but what goes on behind closed doors is another story! anyhoo this guy, treated me badly, i mean who tells a girl they are fat, who wont return sexual favors, calls your mum a bitch and is controling! and the worst thing of all, who DOESNT CARE IF YOU GET KNOCKED UP!!!!! i had to end it right there! and it was then and there when i noticed i was dating my dad! he had the same attributes as my father and the same job as my father once had and likes the same things! i had to get out and i had to face the music, i had to stop with the guys, as it was hurting my heart, as much as it was hurting the guys hearts who i either cheated on or broke up on! in the end i had to do it to save myself from being in a relationship that i didnt wanna be in!!!  so time past and i thought about myself a lot! and i focused on school! it was good to focus on something other than myself for once!!!

i regained my courage and one day outter the blue i came to school dressed as a fairy! why you say, well its simple, it was to support gays rights in Australia, it was to show people in the school that it doesnt matter about where you come from, where youve been, your sex or gender, life style choices, faiths religions or whatever, what matters is you and you being happy!!! so i came to school as a fairy, yeah by now i think most people this was just the norm for me, they did not know the real meaning and why should they, i know deep down there where people out there inspired by this, who were jealous of my confidence, but i dont care, i say let them be jealous, let the bitches bitch about me, at least im standing up for what i believe in!! then a Dickhead at school thought it would be funny to push me in a bush, get it (lez in a bush) not funny i say, hurtful too actually, but i didnt let that worry, that just showed me his mentatlity is that of a 7 year olds! it just shows  that gays are seen as the lower class of society, they laughing stock, the ones you can make fun of because society says so! well THIS HAS TO CHANGE!! but it cant and wont! i mean for an evolutionary race, we are a stupid one! i mean, our toughts, views and judgments on this issue are stone age! they arent up with the times! and we have religions, society and politcians saying being gay means you have NO rights, they say its a sin, that it means nothing and they are sexual desires that shouldnt be fullfilled and its WRONG!

but how can love and being loved be wrong, how can happiness and being happy be denied, how can the right to say i do to the same sex as you or me, be wrong, HOW IS IT WRONG?? where is it wrong, i mean if we are worried about the population decreasing coz gays can get married, there is ivf, adoption and willing people to have babies for others! the world will always have people! the population wont decrease if gays marry, the marriage rates will be higher than the divorce ones and there will be more and more happier people walking the streets, people are dying because of this divide against gays, people are taking their own lives! this has to stop!!! this isnt a world we wanna live in! would you wanna live in a world fueled by hatred and having the one thing that makes you happy taken from you???!!! i think NOT!